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Monday, January 6, 2014

From The Darkness Of Sin Into Light The Light Of Jesus

As I mentioned in a previous post, I went through a period where I did not believe in God. After I decided that there was no God, a change came over me. I was in rock bands at the time, and listened to a lot of rock music. I started preferring darker music with demonic lyrics, songs like "Black Sabbath" and "Sympathy For The Devil". I didn't completely forgo other music; I just seemed to enjoy the darker music.

And, that wasn't the only change that happened. I became curious about the occult, reading about celebrities that were involved in the black magic, divination, seances. Movies such as "Rosemary's Baby" held a unique fascination for me. I began to wonder what it would be like to follow the dark paths. Is there really fame, fortune, and beautiful women? As a shy person that came from a middle class family, this had a certain appeal to me. Would it be worth it?

To be clear, I never attended a black mass, never held a black mass, never performed a satanic sacrifice, never sold my soul to the devil. To my knowledge, I never really committed myself to this route. But, I did think about these things, and far too much. And, I did not even see the change that happened. I thought that was the way things were. Everybody was doing it. I wasn't different. Ha! Little did I know that I was being called and culled by evil forces.

This went on for some time. I was oblivious to the change. No one said anything to me. I wonder why no one brought this up? I don't remember being secretive about it. Now, I don't want to seem overly dramatic about this. At that time I did associated mostly with people my own age. Because of that, they may have had thoughts similar to mine, or just thought I was weird (I do have an unusual perspective on things, and always have.) So, it may have been coincidence. I don't know. I just remember what did and did not happen.

Eventually I had some pretty traumatic events occur to me. Life changing events. You know, the ones that make you think 'what is going on?" I wondered what I should do and where I should go. Then, I met the young woman that would become my wife and I started attending Catholic Mass. It seemed that, almost instantly, my fascination with the occult and demonic disappeared. I didn't consciously say "this is evil, this is wrong, I have to stop". It was more like one day I realized that I preferred happier music, comedies and scifi movies instead of occult movies. Life seemed to be brighter and more enjoyable. That's not to say that I never listen to bands such as Black Sabbath; on the contrary, I still listen to them for the memories of my teenage years (most people prefer music they heard as teenagers and young adults), as well as for their musical content. After all, the musicians in these bands were ground breaking folks. However, I have also broadened my scope in music, books, and movies considerably. Those darker songs and movies are just part and parcel to my entertainment package, and are no longer a primary source for my thoughts.

Thank God I was saved!