We are all given gifts, skills, talents from God. As St. Paul says (1 Cor 12:7) "To each individual the manifestation of the Spirit is given for some benefit." One of my gifts, I believe, is the gift of playing guitar. Don't get me wrong. I am not as talented as Jimmy Page, Muriel Anderson, Andres Segovia, or BB King. However, I will admit that, even as a teenager, I was told regularly that I played well; I continue to hear that even now.
Why do I sometimes feel that I am failing God? I have recently decided to devote my life to performing music, as a way to share God's gift to me. Maybe in my naivete, or maybe because my ego was bigger than I thought it was, I expected to be more successful by now, in the earthly sense, than I think I am. Have I not been practicing diligently enough? Have I not been as aggressive in sharing my talents as I should be? What am I doing wrong?